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i am sick this few daes , and i m not feelin very well todae too ... sleep in physics todae was really abit headach thanks emily for offering to write for me my paper but i did write myself ... i feels that life is getting more and more difficult for me ... sometimes juz dn wish to recover from my sickness ... sometimes juz wish to continue to be sick ... juz wish to stay away from everything ... this few daes thanks to amanda for chatteing wif me on phone as i am really troubled by somethings too ... we tends to share things lah ... dotz,.... and thanks to the ppl that concern bout me .... everydae seems to be quite hard and tiriing ...went home bath, and slp ... that's wat i had been doing lately ...haixxxxxxxxxxxxx .... i dnno wat to do leh dotz .... STUDY STUDY STUDY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GUD LUCK ~!!!!! =((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

Now i am really very boring,tired,nan sou!!! haizz...really dn feel lyk doing D&T ,but i am really forcing myself !!!!! i do and i am not very happy , i oso dnno why ... in skul i cant concentrate ,at home don feel lyk doing it ...now i had to start all over again ... and i am actually sad about it , iam getting slower and slower ... I am angry about myself...totally disappointed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! actually this Qn have been ard me this few daes i juz feel lyk dropping my subject ....i m really stress leh i knw that everyone is stress but i juz dn lyk myself yah !!!! haixxxxxxxx ....i feel lyk going to _ _ _ !!!!! ....I feel lyk giving up ... i really dn have confidence really very upset ... i have many fan niao ,i have thousands and thousands of worry but i actually dnno wat is it and if knw oso dnno how to solve ... i am scare to disappoint ppl ,i am scare of many things ... I am going crazy !!!!! somehow i juz dn wish take O-level ... !!!!!!!!! ...............!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wish to find a place and hide for some period of time and make myself clear of wat i am going to do next.........................cry again..THANKS EILEEN for being there for me ...and thanks to her mother too for encourgement ... and rx too .... haixxx...i had been crying many daes le ... and i really tired liao ... i hate it .... i juz cant cotrol myself ....

todae say truly the first few lessons i am very vex & bad temper as thr's something that irritated me very much ... that is the red dotz growing withn my hands and neck and leg i really very angry as it's very itchy ...THANKS EILEEN & AMANDA FOR CONCENING ME ESP AMANDA FOR ALWAYS HELPING ME TO PUT ON E OIL !!!!! AND EILEEN FOR NOT MINDING ME TOUCHING & PLAYING WIF HER DOG ...as got ppl say maybe is hand-food disease ,dengue , chicken pox , scare me sia thanks her & amanda for not xian qi wo hahaa~thanks alot really ... was really touched !!!!! so todae was not in gud mood so cant blame me .... it was really very bad i always felt gulity cuz of that ,really hate it HAIXZZZ ,THANKS JARED & RIXIN FOR HELPING ME IN MY PHYSICS IF NOT really i dnno when can finish ,thanks jared for teaching too hahaa~they are really nice haha~~~~!!!!! and really quite vex about ytd nite things dnno why keep thinking ... sian ... haha~after doing physics went to market wif Zhe hao ,jared they all ....EAT DONUT !!!!! hahaha LOVE IT !!! original is the best haha~ went home,and then do my homework althought i was really tired !!!! hhahaa~after that went to see a doctor as really cant stand the itchy and the doctor say "____________________" .... dnwish to type out haha!~dnno is counted bad mah haha~then went home watch defeated queen !!!!!! so dam nice & touching ....cried!!! hahhaa!`~love it hahhaa!~one dae pain can past , only beautiful memories will remains .....this is a gud sentence ..... MUZ CHERISH EVERY DAE & TIME !!!!! before everyting is too late ....

knowing that u are alright now,makes me feels very happy & also sad cuz u r hurt by her ,maybe it was the deepest but we will nv knws , althought i knw u are juz making use of me or maybe not ... i stil hope that u will nt be hurt by someone esle anymore ,and when u have any problems feel free to come look for me ,i might not help u much but still i can be the listen ear ,starting to go back to the past ...

todae was quite interesting haha~went to remedial but then halfway went off .... cuz very sian .....went to eat wif zhehao,rixin,chengyong,chuanwai,wenliang,amanda,emily!!! haaha~and had lots of fun things happen ...and then went to zhehao's hse wa nt bad haha~and zh,rx,da,emily,chuanwai&fren,cy ,me went to watch "coming soon" dotz eh the show very irrtating der sian ...cuz very scary i dn lyk to watch horror movie sian ... but end up watch le .... was dam scare i cry leh inside but no one knows haha~dotz thanks to Rx for keep telling me the story inside as i really cant stand the movie hahha~close eye/clover half = nv watch much hahaa.... then went out kana scold by a old uncle more sian ...then went out,go walk walk awhile emily & amanda & chuanwai&fren went off first ...left me & rx&zh&cy dotz very funny we stand at arcade doing nothing but looking at ppl playing then rx&cy play the "gou " so dam funny n cute der lah them ... dotz...and cy & me & rx go play datona? then was lyk dam funny der lah haha my car crush until lyk wat sia hhaa~......nxt we went bk to tpy an waited for my son and cw&fren.and went to gym wa,run 20min eh hahaa~ sian now leg abit pain sia hhahaa~so useless me , wa not bad leh they all lyk very sporty haha~so funny lah!!!!! ~~ went meet daddy after that and had dinner and went home ...hahhaa thanks rx & son for paying DOTZ...
last sat & sun went to I.T fair once wif cy & rx , once went wif bro & da sao haha ....very funny both daes !!!!!!!! sian nv take photo when wif rx&cy ... very clamsy me when wif them and wen wif them to play pool ,was kanna bluff sia ,they both say dnno how to play end up quite pro dotz ...and thanks for teaching me both "dnno how to play "ppl hahhahaa~~~~ dotzdotzdotz!!!!!!!!! ARGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! really happy to go out wif bro first time sia ~~~~ pay this and that hhahhaa and we went bowling dotz , Rx,zh,cy,cw,& fren juz beside playing pool lols ~ytd went to study wif zh,rx,cw,wl,zn,lynn,at first was gud as we keep discussing but then after awwhile all sian le so went to watch zh play in the arcade haha~ dotz!!!!!!!!! but i will study hard der hahha~~~ half play half study!!!!! HOHOHOH both pool and bowling i cant learn it sian...hahhaa both skill so dam bad sia ....... all lousy !!!!!!!dotzZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

todae was another irritated dae ...it was not gud to me ... seeing my result slip makes me wanna throw it away and really it let me thinks that it's hopeless liao ... it was lyk alrdy a dam idiot mood after seeing result ...and when go chinese oral still cher wanna say tat things to me ...ya i knw hers was gud , she always do mah so now wat's the point of saying that and i am really quite pissed by you !!!!! it's juz that i dnwish to say out ... cuz it always will end up my fault ... but now i have forgiven u!!!!!!!! ppl tend to care for themselves more without knwing wats problems ppl are having ...todae was so dam depress went out of classroom and the moment reach library cant take it.. hide in the storeroom and cry then when to look for buddy and chatted too cry ...sian i am sick and tired of myself i am feeling tat i am hopeless .... really hate myself !!! THANKS BUDDY FOR BEING THERE & THANKS ZHE HAO FOR PROVIDING TISSUE ... HAIx ...and thanks Rx oso.thxs adraina for concrning too .... and sry for the bad att lately ...thxs everyone that concern ....... was very hard to understand myself yah ... things wasnt so smooth for me ..and it's very hard juz wish to slow down time...and there are many things i trouble about ...i wish that i could get off all soon ......... hoping .......

todae chinese lesson i am dam quiet lor haha~cuz cher keep coring my name =.=lllll so i concentrated and i did it ... hahaa~ and i wanna THANKS BUDDY !!!!!!! for ytd nite !!!!! tat's really sweet of u !!!!!!!! =) =) todae remendial was fun lor ..haha~our class boy so cute lah !!!! my darling[son] oso dam cute der haha ,brandon he oso dam funny & cute der hohoho~~~~ fun dae!!!!!!!

if only everydae dnhv problms then gud le =) peaceful life ...bt it wont der =] problems will always stays

haiz...dnno why i m very slack now ... i really have no confidence to pass my O ,i want to get gud grades but it ju lyk cant... i cant concentrate on studies yah ... why am i becoming lyk this? so slack sia , haiz ... i wan study !!!!!wan study !!!!! wan study !!!!!!!!!!!! I HATE MYSELF FOR NOT DOING MY BEST IN THE COMMON TESTS !!! HATE MYSELF FOR NOT CONCENTRATING ON STUDIES !!!!!!! IJUZ HATE MYSELF !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BUCK UP TANSIPING !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! its either die / pass !!!!!! i m confused now ...

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ytd went WWW wif , chunwai,chengyong,lynnette,dung,jared,eileen,rixin,wenliang,gary&zhehao,it was very fun lah hahaa~ althought we nearly get into trouble ... hahaa and we met alot of problems before reaching WWW ,still after all was fun lah ?as alot of funny things watch marley & me wif Rixin,gary,chengyong,chunwai,chunwai . reach home at nearly ard 10 50 bah ? i am achingall over . sian ,

todae went WWW & ESCAPE THEME PARK for juz $1 wif ku & fam ...was fun too !!!!!!!!!!!!

i am too tired le i will let my photos do all the talking ...

Todae was quite a dae ... very depressed and i stress up and break down and i had a long cry in the toilet and really cry until my eye & nose are dam red lyk clown ... i had many things to trouble and really had a very hhard time todae ... THANKS TO AMANDA & EILEEN for conselling me ... and had a chat wif me ..... went tpc wif eileen and she brought alot of things ... haahahahaa .... really we walk frm 5+ till 8+ then we go mac buy ice-cream ... at first went kiddy palace hahaa~ then went watson ,brought bubble tea (KOL), then went funfair , then go bata buy shoes wif eileen ... next went to buy sunblock ... then funny thing happen ... next we walk back to funfair and mnore DOTZ ...chatted alot wif her . saw demi & adrain
maybe tml go WWW woohooo ... but still unsure T.T

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